Friday, January 31, 2003

04:17 p.m.

Why is it when you decide to go ahead and do something, do you instantly wonder whether or not it was a good idea as soon as you do it?

This is the quandry I am facing! I didn't give a lot of thought to it, largely because I didn't think much thought was required. So, now I'm wondering whether I did the right thing and whether I've mucked up everything.

It doesn't entirely matter, but perhaps I should not have gone ahead and done it. Will I ever learn that I should trust my instincts and think things over more before putting my foot in it? Perhaps not. Sometimes jumping before thinking is kinda fun, but sometimes it eventuates in unncessary feelings, which could have been avoided if I had have thought the process through. The What Ifs. The Maybes. The Might Happens.

I guess in the end it doesn't matter.

Wednesday, January 29, 2003 - 03:28 p.m.

Quirky habits...

I'm going to talk about something that people don't usually talk about in everyday conversations. Some might not enjoy the topic of conversation, but since this is my webpage, tough! I don't want any abusive email and I don't want to hear about how I should close my webpage down. It's simple not going to happen, so save it.

Today's topic is public bathroom antics. My main comment is largely related to the art of negotiating the whole public toilet situation at work. So, why is it when you wander into the bathroom to do your thing, as you do, that people tend to hold off from, errr, 'letting their hair down'? I've discovered that if there are three people in a row, sitting on the potty, no one dares to be the first to let the process begin! I don't want to be too gross here, so I'm trying to avoid coming right out and saying it! But you know what i mean! I mean, doing Number One is nothing to be embarassed about. It's natural and it all sounds the same!

So, I sit on the potty having a quite chuckle to myself because no one is brave enough to make the first sound. Human nature is amazing.

Wednesday, January 29, 2003 - 12:38 p.m.

happiness...
Do you know that for the first time in my life, I'm not wishing I was somewhere else? I realised the other day that I've always been wishing, dreaming, hoping for somewhere better to be, whether it was Melbourne or Sydney, or overseas, or whatever. I guess I've found out what it is like to be truly content, or at least close to being so.

I mean, my life is good. I have a fabulous job. I earn a lot of money. I have the perfect boyfriend. I have some good friends. I'm happy. How many people can truly admit to that?

Life is going fine. Work is work - I'd rather be at home! I think because we aren't busy, so I'm bored with it and can think of other things to occupy myself with. Glen and I bought a new TV on the weekend. A lovely 68cm Hitachi. Veyr nice. We'd been around to all the major stores, comparing prices and doing our homework. What it came down to was the money factor and the quality of the TV. So, we settled on what we bought. A good price too. I'm in more debt, but you get that.

Speaking of debt. That's going well too. Slowly getting rid of the credit card, the car loan is slowly going away and I am managing to save a little on the side. Could have something to do with the Bank of Glen. Never mind. I'm good for it. I'm not going anywhere at least, so he knows where I live if he needs to claim back the debt!

The Australia Day long weekend was exactly what I needed to get over Christmas. We spent a nice weekend with each other and friends, relaxing and sleeping. It was perfect. Now I am looking forward to my four day weekend over Easter. I know, I have a while to go, but I'll be looking forward to it!

Anyways, signing off for now...

Wednesday, January 22, 2003 - 11:10 a.m.

back again...
Yes, ok. So I've probably broken my resolution to write more in this thing! The trouble is, half the time I don't think I have a lot to say!

Life in general is cruising along. Right now my biggest worry is getting rid of the bain of my life - my credit card, which continues to haunt me for the majority of my young life. It's almsot there, but it impedes me from saving for things like, oh let's say, a HOUSE! The latest thing has been to put plans on hold to buy a big ass TV! It's sad, but true. I've gotta be better at saving my money.

I guess I shouldn't moan and groan too much. There are people out there who are suffering more financially than me. I think I'm becoming impatient because I want so many things, that the time just isn't coming soon enough.

I'm having fun tinkering with my sewing machine, mending things and now sewing myself a pair of nice work pants. I'm having issues with the zip part - such a pain. So I've faxed the pattern to my mum and now she is on the case. NEver fails! No matter how far away she is, I can still rely on her.

Australia DAy long weekend this weekend. So looking forward to it. It'll be a nice opportunity to have an extended rest and really recharge my batteries. We're having friends over on Saturday for a bbq, but that's about all the socialising I plan to do. The weather is going to be a stinker!!! 40 degree heat. No thanks!!

Anyways, wish me luck. The agent comes over early tomorrow morning to do a walk through and inspect our place. Means getting rid of the babies and cleaning up. All is done and the place is sparkling. HUrrah! It won't last long, but at least we enjoy it for the next few days! Tomorrow also means taking the day off and going to the Australian OPen at MElbourne Park. Love that idea! Love love. Get to see ANdre and the rest of the players. Hurrah!

Sunday, January 12, 2003 - 04:55 p.m.

Mmmm...
What can I say? I'm a slack arse to the n-th degree. CHristmas and New Years flew past and the events of my life were huge! Typical!

The lead up to Christmas was hectic in both my social and work life, so I apologise to those of you who still faithfully read my diary - even though there's been nothing new in it.

The major events in my life? Flying home to see mum for Christmas and have GLen and her meet for the first time! It was pretty awesome and a little nerve racking, but it all worked out in the end. We had a nice week, though we were a little antsy to get back to MElbourne where life still goes on after 6pm! All the same, we spent some good quality time with a lot of old friends and my mum, and I got to show Glen around my old haunts in my home town.

New Years itself was uneventful. GLen and I passed out in bed at midnight, only to be woken by the fireworks. We were a bit of an old couple this year, but it had been a long couple of weeks.

I have to say that by the time last week rolled on and it was time to go to work, neither of us felt as if we had any time off. It was a bit of a shit, because I think we both needed it.

So, here I am. I've made no resolutions this year. I don't believe in them, only because I fail to keep them. THe only thing I did do and feel positive about was join a gym across the road from my work. With an understanding and accommodating boss, I'm working out during my lunch hours. The last week has been bearable for me because of it and I really feel refreshed and alive now. I don't feel so sluggish and icky. I think these were my main goals to achieve.

I hope this year was as great as last year. I don't think I could really top it. Being happy is something I'm starting to get used to.

Maybe I should make one resolution...to write more often here than I have been!